​Anticipation. It can be wonderful, like when you are waiting for Christmas or a special event, but it can also be immobilizing when accompanied by fear.
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I started a new med this week. It was one I had been avoiding for years. Methotrexate. It’s actually a cancer drug. My rheumatologist wanted to start me on it years ago, but I resisted. The possible side-effect list alone was enough to make even the heartiest patient think twice. It was recently brought to the table again, by first my rheumatologist, and then again my MS specialist. I tried to sound convinced, but I still tried to duck out of it. It wasn’t until my MS specialist kindly, but honestly reminded me that MS is a lifelong disease, and it is important to get a good handle on it to start with that I knew the time had come for me to make my peace with it.
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The book "Option B" by Sheryl Sandberg and Adam Grant was of great comfort to me as part of accepting and adapting to this new journey I am on.

So imagine my delight when I discovered that they had a website by the same name designed to bring people together in support.  I submitted my story to them and they recently published it. What an honor! It's mostly a summary of what has happened in my life and my Option B journey. If you are interested, you can find it here. 

​Here's to HOPE and Option B!